Lots to update on... not much time to do it

I should have been in bed two hours ago bc i have to go to NJ in the morning and have to be up @ 6:30. (make that less than 5 hours)
Job seach update
J and J Party- did not have enough retail experience
Lilac Blossom: All hostess positions filled
TECH College Wellness Center Clerk: Position filled
Market Basket they are going to call me in for a interview early next week
After School Programs

• Adult Learning Center (Nashua -Main Dunstable Elementary School) - Position filled
• 21st Century (Nashua Amherst- St Elementary School)- still waiting to hear back
• New Morning School ( Amherst -Clark and Wilkins)- Will hear back from them by Monday or Tuesday once they find out how many kids they have in the program

TJ Maxx is supposed to call me back on Monday about the position in the fitting room.

GRRR this is getting so frusturating!!

So let's see... Anything Goes was a decent play. I enjoyed myself. Please go to my theatre blog for the full review. It was nice to go to the Barn Playhouse again but I am happy to report that after several months of depression about stuff related to the Barn and stuff related to my season there I am fully ready to move on. I am done with driving myself crazy and being obsessed. It is not worth it all. No one from my intern company has forgotten about me or any of the fun times we had that summer, no matter how much I tend to think that Will Porter still has and despite the distance everyone is still friends with me. I should have just let all this stuff go a long time ago. It would have made things so much easier for my mental sanity and I would have not driven all my friends so crazy. Thank you everyone so much for putting up with me! You won't have to deal anymore with spazzy emails from me. You all know who you are.. or at least I am hoping you do. I love all of you so much.

Wednesday was my birthday. I am 24 and feel like I am a new person, Typically a birthday is just a birthday but for me this marks the beginning of a whole new me. As I just mentioned above I spent most of the past year and a half being anxious depressed and nervous about stuff related to the Barn Playhouse.. it is time to put the past in the past totally and completley and focus on the present and future. Focus on my friends and amazing boyfriend.. that's what truly matters and all that should. The memories of the Barn Playhouse will always mean a lot to me but it's not fair for me to focus on the negative emotions I have felt about stuff related to the Barn and how much things have changed there since I left there two summers ago. I can't control any of that... I should have realized that a long time ago.. that would have really eliminated a lot of my anxiety.

Anyway as I highlighted at the top of the entry the job search is still very slow going, stressful and frusturating. I am annoyed that I still have not found a job yet. I have been looking for about 8 and half months now maybe a little bit more. I am really hoping something will surface soon. If nothing does the least I can hope for is more hours for subsitute teaching at Milford and Nashua. School starts on Tuesday and I am so ready for classes to start. The summer has seemed to drag on forever since my summer course ended on June 30th.... mainly because my homework gave me less stress off of job searching.

Time for bed... seriously! Although I suppose whatever sleep I do not get tonight I will get on the way down to NJ in the car.

Love Janine

Exhausted!

This weekend I went to Matt's house in Kennebunk for a family reunion. It was awesome to meet all his family. They all seem very nice. We had a delicious dinner of gumbo and sausages. I had never had gumbo before..it was quite good and i am not typically a fan of spicy foods at all. Yesterday we went to Glouschter for his bowling tournment. I thought I would be immensly bored but I actually enjoyed myself and learned a little bit about bowling and how a professiomal bowling compettion is run. Today we met my parents @ Wells Beach which was nice and relaxing.. but yet when all the events of this weekend are all added together I am quite exhausted... a good night's sleep is well deserved, Last weekend I went up to Meredith with Matt and Sonya to go see Oaklahoma. It was an amazing show. I truly enjoy going to see shows at Summer Theatre in Meredith Village and am so excited about their season next summer. One of the shows they are doing next summer is Chicago which is one of my absolutle favorites. It was so awesome to see Maggie John Baker and Marco again.. it was a really big surprise to see Marco because I didn't even know he was in the show. Good times!

Saturday I am going to the Barn Playhouse to go see Anything Goes. Earlier this summer I was a little bit leary to even go to the Barn Playhouse at all because I had gone through a really deep depression about stuff related to that theatre and how the management there had changed since I left there two summers ago but I've learned to live with that.. I really don't have a choice because there is nothing I can do to change anything what's done is done. I am done feeling guilty about over reacting and fearing that people have forgotten about me. No one has forgotten about me that was dumb to worry about in the first place.


Time for bed.
Janine