BEST Freshmen and Sophmore Year Memories

i paging through my old lj that i crossed over to this one and i was lost on the over bearing nostalgia of last year and last semester

Top Favorite Memories

1. Theatre Department Christmas Party at Keri's 2. Showcase last spring ( GALOSHES hee hee i heart Zach) 3. Improv show last semester 4. Hanging out with the theatre people and celebrating Darren and Vivian's birthdays (which was after the improv show. I was really hyped up on sugar that night due to too much soda and pie which caused me to leap clear across the common room of the theatre suite and scare the shit out of Darren) 5. Spring Weekend6. Native American Lit class field trip to DC (despite the rain) 7. Haunted Hayride 8. Salem Witches Muesem Field Trip 9. Laramie Project 10. Tartuffe 11 being on stage crew for Betty's Summer Vacation Honestly with memories such as those you can't go wrong. This semester is shaping up with many good memories too. I can't wait til the second half of the semester it's going to be awesome and less drama filled. Sometimes I really think i am one of the most overcritcal person when it comes to myself. I am way too wrapped up in the affect i will make on people if that makes sense. I put too much preassure on myself to good grades which doesn't make the academic part of school too much fun for me. Last semester that was a really big pain in the ass because i was so paranoid with getting good grades where i almost reached nervous break down mode a couple times. I get annoyed with myself that I can't seem to get out of the mindset of worrying about what other people think of me... like that whole thing I went through during christmas break when I thought the theatre people thought i was annoying.. that showed me that i was overly worried about what certain people in that group thought of me.. i spent th firsr couple weeks of this semester trying to figure out if i should bother comforting the people who i thought i annoyed but afterwhile i didn't really deem it to be that worth it to worry about because if they don't like me then that's their problem but i think for the most part they like and don't get quite as many dirrty looks from the person who was giving me dirty looks so that works for me. Something that i also to find that bugs me a lot is that i haven't really out grown my shyness factors around guys... I was laughing at how immature i was last year when I gave Ford that flower for valentine's day which in the end he didn't end up recieving. I felt like such a shallow person last semester when I was nervous about telling Zach that i liked him and then i was worried in the days following telling him that I liked him that it ruined our friendship but that was really dumb to worry about because there's a slim chance that it did. I think the main reason why i am so shy around guys is because i am afraid of rejection. I've been like that since high school and i think i need to get over it. For some reason it's hard to get over.... I'll need to get over this eventually because there's no way in hell i plan on being single the rest of my life.and on that note i leave you with a song*sings*through all kinds of weatherwhat if the sky should falljust as long as we're togetherit doesn't matter at allwell they've had all their quarells and partedwe'll be the same as we startedjust travelin along singing our songside by side*makes like a crow and flies away*

2nd reminder of the awesome friends I have.

Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind or fogotten." Lilo and StitchLately I've been thinking a lot about my friends up here at NEC and how much like a family they've become to me. Especially, with all the shit i've been through this year between my uncle passing away in September and all the shit i've had to deal with with my issues with Christina. Quite honestly I don't know where I would be or how the fuck i would be kept sane without my friends to keep me laughing and smiling. I think a lot of the time I don't give them enough credit where credit is due.. so this is my salute to them all of them.....Jennie, Darren, Zach, Emily, Megan, Amy, Alli, Erin L, Tim, Lauren (though i haven't talked to her in awhile); Erin R, Jackie, Keri, Sarah; Chris, Cooper, Marion, Anh,Amanda (bitch at me later if i forgot anyone but i don't think that I did.) I love you guys dearly and I honestly don't know where I would be with out you. loveJanine

Frat Party Advenutres

Well i survived my first frat party.... and it'll probably be my last one too. I had a decent time but the whole partying thing is not for me at all. Too much craziness to absorb all at once. I did have a few drinks but only two beers so I really don't feel wasted at all. It helped me to forget about this whole feeling uncomfortable around certain people from theatre thing but only for a few minutes.Frat guys are realllly cute....... ;)

Jr Year Begins

Well this semester is most certainly off to a good start. I'm aiming for a stress-free semester or as stressfree as I can possibly obtain to get it. So happy to be back with my loves. Classes are going most fantastically too Here's what i am taking:Biology and Society: Lauren was so right about Eric Simon. He's an awesome teacher and while science may not be my strongest subject area I think this class may end becoming my favorite one. The labs are going to be fun too. Next week we get to go to the supermarket and compare different food labels.Feature Writing: Some of the people who were in Media Writing with me last semester are back and I have a feeling it's going to be an awesome class. It will give me an oppotunity to polish up my writing and try new styles of writing I may not have tried before.Journalism 2: ummm..getting credit for the articles I write about the theatre shows? Clearly amazing. Who could ask for more? I am sure not gonna complain :D Oh and a shout out to those in CTE who read this (if any of you do do) if you suggestions for things you want to have me write articles feel free to shoot them my way.Intro To Poli Sci: We didn't have class yesterday because my teacher got stuck in a long meeting but i am looking very foward to this class and the debates we'll have. Oral Communications: This class should be interesting. I've never written a speech before well unless you count writing campaign speeches for when I ran for student government. I look foward to see what other people write their speeches about and what kinds of interesting things I come up with for my own speeches.So hopefully my stress level will be reduced to nothing this semester and I can reach my ultimate goal of getting on Deans List. Tuesday was Founder's Day and they celebrated the 60th Anniversary of the college. I found it intensley interesting to learn about the founding of the colllege and how it has evovled since the opening. Now it's time to talk about auditons.. oh the wonders! Suprisingly the musical auditions were a lot less painful then I was assuming they would be. I sang Hero by Mariah Carey as my audition song and I think it went over pretty well. I'm still a bit nervous about getting into the musical because of things I have previously stated about the stakes being set to high as far as the singing part of the auditions go becausse as always I will be pitted against people with better voices than me. The auditon for Zach's play was a breeze for the most part. I think I have a better chance of getting into Zach's play than I do the musical but I guess we'll see where the chips fall for casting,won't we now?Well either way wish me luckl (again) I find out sometime tomorrow afternoon wheater or not I get in so here's hoping.

Reminding myself how awesome my friends are.

excerpted from an entry i wrote in my old journal (dreambigdreams)in October....Another interesting concept I have found out is that I don't seem to settle on one group of friends but hang out with a bunch of people from different groups of people. I'm not big on the whole "clique" thing and never really was in high school either. One example is my core group of girl friends Ahn,Marion and Martha. We all have fun hanging out together. Then there's the whole theatre crew where i most certainly can't go wrong.. love all of them dearly and have a blast hanging out with all of them. Then there's a bunch of freshmen that I've made friends with like Bobbie Jo, Mollie, Ali and Jessie. Heart them all.going off that point.......Well yes, for the most part I do enjoy hanging out with my theatre friends and I certainly can't go wrong there. I know recently i have been complaining/ranting about how I think certain people from that group don't like me/think I am annoying but you know what? I don't give a crap because basically that mindset only relates to two or three people, one person i was concerned about told me she didn't think i was annoying.. i just hope she really meant it because generally she is pretty awesome. The two people that I still get uncomfortable feeling about are people i don't see a lot of, actually i see one more than i see the other because I barely see the second one at all because she lives off campus in an apartment. For the most part though, I get along well with most of the people from theatre and the seem to like me so it's all good. They kick ass. Though sometimes I still think that the fact that I asked out Zach may have messed up our friendship a little bit but that's in a whole different ballpark from what i am talking about so let's not talk about that.All in all my friends kick ass and i love them alll WOOO HOO!!!Today I went to go to the Boys and Girls Club in Milford to talk to the volunteer coordinator about doing some volunteer work when i am home for break. I start volunteering tomorrow afternoon from 3:30-4:30 and i am wicked excited about it. It will definitley add some variety to my schedule for break.. which so far really hasn't amounted to very much. The Boys and Girls Club is an absolutley gorgeous facility it seems like a fun place to work and i can't wait to start... I really hope i can get a job there this summer.Valentines Day is in a little bit over a month. I was really hoping to have a boyfriend by valentines day but i haven't had very much luck with boys so far this year. Doesn't look anything is going to happen in the realtionship department for me between now and valentines day unless by some miralce i meet a guy at school when I get back on the 29th and somehow magically hit it off. I don't think that will happen though. Meaning it will be another lonely valentines day for me. I'll most likely be really mopey all day long because that's the day where people who are in realationships go out and do stuff with there signifcant others and since i don't have a signifcant other i will be shafted like i always am. I hate Valentines Day.. always have and always will except for that one valentines when a small message of friendship touched my heart... that made my day. I wish I had told that person how much that made me happy but i never did and now i never talk to him anymore. oh well c'est la vietime for dinnerxoxoxJanine

While getting ready for the semi

So doing my laundry today took longer than it really should've for various reasons. I went down to my laundry room @ 1:10 to go do my laundry only to disccover that the all the washing machines were out of order. So i got on instant messanger and imed various people to see if the washing machines were working in their dorms. I didn't get many answers so i got off my ass and walked over to Charter to investigae. Once i found out that the washing machine was working i did my laundry. After the 26 minute wash cyccle was completed i put my clothes in the dryer only to find out that the was not even plugged in. So i went back to East in order to find salvation but i found none because all of the dryers were out of order too. So i went over to Union to see what the situation was over there i saw the washers but i didn't see dryers so i left an went to Connor where i finally found a working dryer and put my clothes in that dryer. When i got back to charter i realized that two socks had fallen out of my laundry basket so i had to blowdry them because i didn't really feel like going over to connor to put them in the dryer. I watched tv fr an hour than went back to Connor to get my clothes out of the dryer and went back to my room to put all my shit away. Most horendous day ever.I'm rather afraid to tell my mom this story because i have a feeling she'll get really mad at me... but then again she may find it kind of humoours as i am hoping most of you will. this is my thrid entry today oh welloff to get ready for the dance. toodles much love

Fall 05- Dealing with finals stress

Can I honestly say how happy I am that i didn't go to new york this weekend? Last week was so stresful for me and sure new york is a fun time but if i had gone to New York I would have been been overwhelemed with even more work than I would've known how to deal with. I mean I realize I missed a good time but I will have other opportunities to go see shows in New York... that's why it's good to have a mom whose job takes her to new york every now and then then she can take me to see Rent or any other in particular show that might be play whenever we go. The creationism paper for science wasn't so bad after al... even thoughj I had to retype my entire outline because I lost the version I orginally had of it because my computer crashed on Wednesday and being the moron that i can be on occassion i forgot to save it to disk. I am realy hoping that they find out what is wrong with my computer very soon. It really upsets me that this had to happen right before finals week tres annoying. Hopefully not everything will not be totally erased from my hard drive because I had the rest of the 37 chapter novella that I finished writing last year saved on my hard drive and it would suck if my hard drive got erased because i can't find the disk that I saved all my chapters on. And naturally all my homework from this semester is also saved on my hard drive but a lot of that stuff is backed up so i'm not too worried about that. Well the next couple of weeks will definitly be quite insane with preparing for/taking finals. Let's see if I can survive the next 2 and half theree weeks without having a breakdown much like the minor one that I had Thursday morning after I got out of Multicultural Ed. My finals schedule consists of one project two tests and one portfolio for media writing so that shouldn't be too much to stress out on.. well at least i'm hoping so. But then after that I'll be home free and back in Amherst for a monnth of relaxation at home.. though I'll still be working because I need to start doing research for jobs and internships for the summer over the break. Last Tuesday when Keri did her performance the people from WMUR were up her to interview Keri and I was standing right next to Tiffany Eddy at one point during the performance and I should've said to her " Hey I'm looking for internship at your studio for this this summer." but I didn't and thought to myself 'Oh darn, there goes a golden opportunity.' Aw shucks, oh well. This semester has been one hell of crazy one and honestly I can't wait for it to be over because then I can relax. Honestly, so much has gone on for me between my uncle passing away in September, classes,homework; being overwhelemd about being in too many clubs, stupid boys, being nervous about asking a guy out...then actually telling him that I liked him and later regretting it because I thought it would somehow mess our friendship up.. my life has somewhat resembled that of hurricane. But as the short entry below this quite lenghty one states I have awesome friends up here at school who have been there for me through all the rough times I've been through this semester. It's always a good thing to know you have people on your side to bring you up when you are feeling down and to cheer you up. So to everyone... wheather you read this or not... Tim,Erin,Christina,Ali, My suite three girls (Emily;Amy and Megan) Anh; Marion; Sarah; Jennie; Rachel; Darren; Zach, Amanda, Keri (Thursday primarily) and anyone else.. i don't think i'm leaving anyone out if i am feel free to yell at me later and to all the Amherst kids who comment on this journal still and leave me notes on my facebook page thanks for being there I love you guys, you all kick ass.*end of mini sentimental rant... but i think it's important to let my friends know how much they rock my socks off and how i much I appreciate them. * moving on........Showcase is on Friday. Honestly I'm not really sure if I want to perform in it anymore because I don't really think what I am going to do for it will be ready for Friday. But naturally I will go anyway to support my other friends from theatre who are in it. And take some pictures because taking pictures is fun :D Next Friday is the semi formal. I am really excited about going to it but I am having trouble finding a date. I have already asked someone but he said he wasn't sure if he was going to go yet and that he would get back to me. I'm not sure how long he's going to take to get back to me but I should let him know I need to know what his answer is by a certain time so that way I have enough time to ask someone else to go with me if he says no. If I strike out with finding a date then I will just go stag because it is more fun that way on occassion. I do have a few people i mind just in case this person says no so i am not going to give up. I'm going to predict my end of the semester grades just for kicks because it's always fun to predict things though most of the time when i predict things i am wrongScience B-/CMulticulutral Ed CMedia Writing B+Politics Bso we'll have to see where things end up with that. Wish me luck.. I'll need it moreso for science than the other classes because I think i'm borderline in that class gradewise and quite honestly i'm worried that i am going to fail it. But maybe I just jump to conclusions too much. I'll just go with the flow. back to finishing my science paper~Janine