Good vibes good vibes

Today I had an inteview for a job training program at the Boys and Girls Club of Greater Nashua called Mission Possible. It went fairly well and I think I have a really good chance of getting in to it. It starts March 15th and goes til the last week of April. I am hope I get into it because it will give me good skills and some money that I so desperately need. I also have my Project Search interview in a few weeks which is job training program at St Joe's Hospital.


Hopefully I get into both of these training programs they will give me the link that has so desperately been missing in the previous jobs I've had.



UPDATE!!! I got into Mission Possible! I start work on Tuesday the 16th. So EXCITED!! Project Search Interview 6pm on the 22nd!! Wish me luck!

My life needs to be DRAMA FREE

A great group of friends now divided because of childish drama

Back Row Tamika Mcmayo,Jen By,Janine Leffler, Jon Waite, Kori Adams,Autumn Monsees,James Popek, Matt Smith

Front Row Leanna Pizer, Laura Hachez

Not Pictured Cooper Bowman (cuz he took the photo), Morgan Floyd, Sam Floyd, Erin Ryan, Stacey Harris

So this entry kind of connects to my entry from a few weeks ago 2nd family Stress no more about my NEC friends and how much drama there has been between everyone in the past two years.

I've had a hard time accepting that there has been too much damage done between certain people that can not be fixed but at this point I think it is best to accept that and move on. I find it to be best to distance myself from the drama because trust me I don't have the interest time or energy to deal with other people's problems. I have too much of my own shit going on between trying to find a job and paying back my college loans. As I previously mentioned my biggest regret is not distancing myself from the drama in the beginning. As much as I still wanted to remain friends with everyone I found the fact that I was constantly being asked my opinon about fights I wasn't even involved in to be stressful and emotionally taxing. As much as I do enjoy keeping in touch the people at NEC who I am still friends with I just can't deal with even HEARING about all this immature drama anymore.. it just pains me too much that people who are in college can't freaking ACT THEIR AGE and have to constantly start shit and distance themselves from people who still WANT to be friends with them. It just pisses me off and drives me nuts. I can't deal with it anymore.
Sorry to admit but this is the reason why I am not going to be going to Henniker as much as I used to this semester. I just can't take all this shit or even hearing about the constant cylce of drama that's been going on since I graduated. I am definitley happy to see the two people I actually go get to see when I go to visit Laura and her boyfriend Joe and Leanna but it just makes me so sad/mad that people are unable to act like adults and put thier differences aside so we can get together and catch up LIKE WE USED TO. As I said earlier I think it's best to accept the honest truth of the matter and move on. Make new friends and still keep in touch with the friends from NEC who I've stayed in touch with since I graduated that DO NOT CAUSE DRAMA.



Here is a poem I wrote in regards to this issue.

Goodbye To Drama

I can't put up
with the stress this shit putson me anymore
Don't you guys see the big picture?
I honestly don't think you do.
I'm being blunt herehonest and true.
Foolish arguments
juvenile disagreements
The big picture is
that the way you've been acting
is affecting everyone.
Our once tight knit familywill never be the same again
This causes everyone the greatest amount of pain.
You've clealry made your choice
while it's disappointing we respect it
we really don't have much of an option.
We say goodbye to you
and this never ending cycle of drama
we can't put up with it
nor should we have to.
Perhaps goodbye is not forever
and when you realize how much
your actions have hurt everyonewe
can rekindle the friendships we once had
hopefully this is not wishful thinking
but for now we must say goodbye
to all of this childish drama
and shut it out of our lives.

hmm

Considering getting rid of this blog. I feel like my life shouldn't be broadcast over the internet. Most of what I write about ends up being written in my regular diary anyway. I feel like it's better to just stick to my theatre blog because I write in that most of the time anyway.

Anyways what has happened since my last post.. other than the NH Theatre Awards and Valentines Day nothing to exciting. The Theatre Awards were fun... a ton of fun. I hope I get invited to go next year. Full review of the ceremony is at my theatre blog. Yesterday for Valentines Day Matt and I went to see Forbidden Broadway at Peacock Players which was phenomenal and went out to dinner @ Fridays. Other than that I am recovering for a cold.. actually now it's pretty much gone. I got a bug from the kids from Annie Jr... glad it's gone now just in time for vacation next week. Can't wait to go to Florida. The job search still presses on. Still not bites yet. Hoping something will accumulate sooner rather than later.

I feel like nothing is getting accomplished by sitting at home.. except the constant scribbilings of fan fiction all the more reason why I need a job. At least I'll be starting up work on Bye Bye Birdie when I get home from vacation! Looking SO SO SO FORWARD to that!

Not much of an update.

Until later

Janine

Job searching doubts

It's SO early in the job searching process and I am already stuck about everything and quite frusturated. At least volunteering at the Chamber of Commerce one or two days a week stops me going insane. I also plan on volunteering for Share a distribution center in Milford that gives out clothes and food to needy people in the local community.

There are just so FEW jobs out there right now so the biggest gripe I have is figuring out where to look. At this point I'm pretty desperate so yesterday I called resturants to find out who was looking for hostesses. Picked up a few applications today and will fill them out later this weekend. I also plan on calling Pep Direct back to see if how many openings they need filled for second shift. (3pm-11pm) I didn't get the job at Autism Bridges. Disappointment #1 in the newly restarted job search process. Hopefully the successes will outnumber the disappointments this time around.

2nd family stress no more

Back in the fall there was a substanial amount of time when I did not write in this blog because there was some stuff that was going on that I thought was best to keep to myself in regards to drama that had arisen in two seperate situations. One which was related to an argument I was in with my best friend Heather which has since been resolved and some issues in was dealing with a few of my friends from NEC who shall remain nameless and needless to say are no longer my friends. The reason they are not my friends anymore has nothing to do with me but with their own personal choices they have made in which to distance themselves from our group of friends. I deem it best to respect their wishes and not contact them anymore and hope they come around eventually and realize how immature they are being. In the meantime I have wished them well in the rest of their academic careers at NEC and what ever they choose to persure after graduation.
Since I graduated from NEC in 2008 there was been a substanial amount of childish drama between my group of friends at NEC. I have tried my very best to keep my distance from everything and not get involved but instead to only give my opinions where I felt they were necessary. However, drama continued to escalate and I still was made aware of it through my other friends who are still at the school. While I was moving on with my life away from NEC and making new friends away from NEC I was sincerely holding out hope that people would put thier issues with eachother aside so that way we could still get together and hang out whenever Matt and I go up to visit NEC. I have recently realized and begun to accept that sadly this is no longer the case. I am not not the only person who is upset by this though. I can think of a few other people that are upset by this but I'm choosing not to name names as not to stir the pot and cause more drama. I wish things could go back to the they way they were before I graduated when everyone got along and there was no reason to fight with each other. As far as I can tell, and this is honest and sad truth nothing is repairable.. The damage done between certain people is too great and there is no way for people to work things with eachother no matter how hard I hoped and prayed that would happen. When all this shit even started what I really should have done was ignored all the messages in my facebook inbox that were related to the drama. I didn't really have the energy or time to deal with any of it anyways. Of course being the good friend that I am I felt the need to give advice wherever I was best fit to give it. Big mistake because that just led me to getting more messages in my inbox about drama I did not even want to be related to. I am not saying I do not love my NEC friends (the people I still keep in touch with) because I do. I love them all deeply. They all know this. This is no disrepect to any of them. My general point is that if I had wanted to distance myself from the drama I whould have ignored all the facebook messages and at this point. I deeply regret NOT doing that. It would have deeply brought down any unneeded stress and anxiety I was dealing with at that time. In which was in constant overload between the job search and my deperession with the Barn Playhouse and the whole sitution with Will Porter.

At this point I feel it is best to move on. I do not know how often I plan on going to NEC this semester. Every time I go up there I just hear about more drama and I can't even deal with hearing about it anymore. It just really hurts me on a deep personal level that people are letting to many stupid things get in the way of us all hanging out together. I'm not even intending to be overdramtic here. These are simply facts and general feelings. This is my livejournal after all. I think I deserve to be honest.

In other news I had an interview on Thursday that went really well. The position I interviewd for was an admistrative postion at an office in Bedford that does intake for providing services for children with Autism. Crossing my fingers for a second interview.

Tell Me Quick about Hugo and Kim

So Matt Rae and I have agreed that it would be best to postpone our excursion to New York until a time when we all have more money. All three of us are still looking for work right now and who knows it will take us to find jobs. All three shows we are considering seeing are doing well in the box office and hopefully this will continue so they will still be playing when we go there. The three shows we are choosing between are A Little Night Music (Yay for Ramona Mallory!!! ) , Billy Elliot (which I personlly find to be a bit over rated) and Jersey Boys.

Speaking of work I have a job interview on Thursday (was supposed to be tomororw but it got pushed back) at Autism Bridges in Nashua. Autism Bridges is a company which provides services for children and adults with Autism. I think that will be a great place for me to work since I like working with people with disabilities. The position I will be interviewing for is an admistrative office position. *crosses fingers*

Theatre wise I am currently doing tech work for a youth theatre production of Annie Junior which opens next Friday. I am excited about it. Annie is one of my favorite musicals (I have a lot of favorite musicals btw) and after that I will be helping out backstage with my high school's production of Bye Bye Birdie (hence the title name for the entry). So excited as Bye Bye Birdie is another one of my favorite musicals. I am glad I can give back to the theatre program I was a part of five years ago and can work on a show with my former directors. I have not seen a show at Souhegan since 2007 when they did Beauty and The Beast. Time conflicts the past two years disallowed me to see Carsouel and Pirates of Penzance. It should be a great expereince! Looking so forward to it,

American Idol Season 9 has BEGUN!! I have decided to watch whole season from beginning to end... which I have typically done for most of the seasons it's been on except for last year because they audition shows were tortorous to watch. A majority of the auditions so far have been tolerable and some have been down right amazing. There this one girl from the Boston auditions who really stood out to me. Her name is Katie and she is 16 and is from CT. I think she will definitly go all the way. Stay tuned for more American Idol updates.


Looking for a good movie to see GO SEE THE BLIND SIDE! It's amazingly powerful! I was so happy Sandra Bullock won the Golden Globe. That was truly the best performance she has ever done in a movie in a long time.

Not much else to write about!

Janine

Livejournal crossover

So livejournal always has these writer's block questions. I don't really take a lot of time to think about them but this particular one sparked my interest figured it would give you blog readers some insight about where I stand politically
To be honest I do really follow polotics at all. I try to avoid it at all costs. I don't know where my friends stand as far as their views because we don't really talk about politics very much. Two issues that are really important to me are the rights for people with disabilites and Gay Marriage. The first one is important to me becausae I have a disabiltiy. I was born with mild cerebal palsy and I have a non-verbal disorder that has not been fully diagonosed that is somewhere on the Autism spectrum. Based on my circumstances I have always felt that people with disabilities are serverely misunderstood and classified often as stupid whne most of the time they are just as smart as thier counterparts that are not disabled, For the second one I am huge supporter of gay rights. I really wasn't made aware of this issue til I went to college and Matthew Shepard's mother came to speak to students at my school my freshmen year. She gave a really eye opening speech and my school's theatre department performed The Laramie Project the same year. That was one of the plays that hit me so emotionally that I almost cried during the performance. That really opened my eyes to gay rights and that is what caused me to join the Gay Straight Allliance at my college. Til I joined that club I didn't really know many people who were gay or bisexual. Now that I am more openminded I realize that besides their sexualtiy gays bis and lesibians are really the same as we are their view point on love is just a little bit different then ours. When it boils down to it though love is love and sexuality should withstand no boundaries.As far as the other catergories are concerend I don't really have a solid opinon on capital punushment because I don't know a lot about it. Abortion is another issue I feel strongly about. In my opinion it is the mother's decision what she want to do but I am in support of life so if the mother does not feel confident in wanting to care for a child she can always put it up for adoption.